AsenDURE @ Corner of 11th & 20th

I’m damn freaking bloody pissed off at the moment so excuse me if I do use some swear words. Reader discretion is advised.

Suicide is a damning and final display of up most cowardiance. It is the solution of quitters. The final stroke of lameness. A spit second of pitiful ignorance, of the things that matter, and the ultimate epitome of stupidity. It takes even more fucking courage to live god dammit! Life’s a bitch, reality bites – go figure – deal with it you god damn foolish asswipe!. This world isn’t a freaking playground or a peaceful stroll in the park…It is a collection of possibilities and you build your own happiness out of it. There’s no such thing as an unsolvable problem or unmovable obstacles in life, especially if it concerns our puny pitiful sorry excuse of an existence, we’re not talking about Advanced Number Theory and Fermat’s Last Theorem here people!

Not as strong as you think? Screw you! We are ALWAYS stronger than what we think! It’s called the human will and it has displayed itself countless time over the millennia of human existence. If after 3 years of sharing my life with you, you still think I don’t know you, then maybe you’re right. But I know how strong you are. I’ve seen that strength and in adversity you have blossom into a beautiful flower indeed. I don’t know now where that firey gusto and freedom in living life has gone.

How can one justify it as a relief to pain? Tiuuu! That’s total bullshit, bullshit the magnitude of the cosmos. Such superbly display of logical justification that would make ancient philosopher roll over in their graves. Big news!, when you dead you don’t feel pain, you’re freaking dead for Christ’s sake! You don’t feel anything! But what’s the point of ending one life over a little bit of pain? You’ll lose out on what life has to offer, and confound it! Life has a lot to offer.

Not to mention the selfish and childish taunting and mockery you make of those who care about your. Putting them in agony during the hours of unknown waiting and praying is the worst and most despicable act one can do in return for love. Shameless, selfish cowardly ingrate! You are never alone and all the endless pain you suffer is inflicted by your own wrapped, wallowing self-pitiful depressed self. You have literally shut yourself out of the love everyone around you are showering on you. You have unleashed in yourself a demon that have taken over you consciousness, that has clouded your perception, and has twisted and disfigured your inner sanctum that you are now unable to even recognize the countless gentle gestures, in whatever form, of love extended to you by those around you! - even if it hit you like 200tons freight train at 2 in on a monday morning.

If this accursed confounded common sense doesn’t still sink in I have a lot of other solutions to suicide. Hollow yourself out, you’re already hallow anyway, and devote yourself to the caring of the sick, the dying, orphans, those on death row, the hungry, the poor and see if you can understand and grasp the meaning of life. Join the Peace Corps or be a volunteer in any of the thousands charity organization. If you hate humans, care for animals! SPCA, WWF, Greenpeace. If you still feel like a cursed coward and still want to given up please make sure fucking sure that you have signed an organ donor card.

Thanks alot for fucking up my day, my week and probably my life!

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