AsenDURE @ Corner of 11th & 20th

“Oh! Why do we always not look at instructions? Why don’t men ever stop to ask for directions?”

Heh…Was trying to figure out how to make the Friendster blog work. Had it up a couple of months ago, but when I finally mustered the courage to put up my first posting…I hit a bump in the road, in the form of not knowing how on earth to post on my own blog. My first assumption was, all I had to do was somehow to find some colorful boldly-worded “Add post” button or link.

True enough, I found it, but when I pressed on it, nothing happen. “Oh”, I thought, “must be my web browser lagging”, so I hit it again – and still nothing. “Oh my, now it’s getting quite annoying”, crossing my fingers, I hit the darn button again - and yet still nothing. “Okaay…”the rational ‘me’ is slowly being overtaken by the exasperated ‘me’ and I started hitting the button repeatedly till anyone who walked past my room would assume I was playing Doom3 and fragging opponents left and right as if my very life depended on the score…and yeah! You guessed it – Nothing happened.

Which lead me to start fumbling around with setting controls, configurations and finally after ‘getting intimate’ with all the various intricate blog functions, I realized that I had gotten myself lost in all it’s apparent complexities (though the notion would be proven wrong later on, when I realized that I missed or rather skipped a couple of important steps during the blog creation and regeneration). In vexation, I even tried deleting the entire blog account and recreating it, but not before asking around in internet messenger and irc chat regarding a walkaround.

So technically, this is my second blog, and the irony is I haven’t even started posting. It was then, that I realized I should give the FAQ a read. Lo and behold! And was the saying goes “the rest is history”.

Well looks like the inevitable has happen. Sigh~. I’ve jumped on the blogging bandwagon. Been thinking about it this couple of days and I seriously have doubt on why I would want to expose my private thoughts and life to others, the self-consciouness, the gloating, the self-loathing, the self-pity.

I guess it all comes down to expression, or in particular the freedom of it. Anyhow I’ve always been more comfortable writing things down due to my reserved nature. I love sitting down to write. When I start, I have no idea where I’m headed. I love that freedom. A lot like my other favorite pastime, doodling.I do sometimes plan out what I want to write about, but sometimes just sitting down and letting go is like going off for a walk with no predetermined finish or route. The beauty and joy of self expression and inspiration.

We all want people to bear witness to our lives…to make it matter or bear some significance. That’s why we have friends and lovers outside our nuclear family. It’s also I suppose why we talk about ourselves so much. Anyhow as you can see, I’ve stop the procrastinating, and did a google on why people blog…and it comes down to a million reasons. I guess the excerpt below best describes why I blog…

Herman Melville put it best when he said,

“We cannot live for ourselves alone. Our lives are connected by a thousand invisible threads, and along these sympathetic fibers, our actions run as causes and return to us as results.” A perfect description of blogging, don’t you think?

I started blogging some years ago largely to pass time and share experiences. A small part of me, however, was selfishly hoping for admiration and affirmation; a shallow attitude I’ve long abandoned. Eventually, I discovered the joy found via “invisible threads” and “sympathetic fibers” - those human connections made along the way. Blogger tend to be a lovely comfort of strangers.”